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Thursday, January 5, 2012

I Have Never Been to Seminary....




Well, that is of course unless you count the one course I decided to take at the College of Biblical Studies. I took Old Testament in Spanish. Looking back that definetly was not the smartest idea in the world..mainly because I used my old King James Spanish Bible to read it all. If you know me you know that Spanish is not my first language so reading it is a struggle. My Spanish is probably on level with a 5th grader. That being said, I didn't quit finish all the reading I was supposed to. Don't ask me why I didn't just use my English language Bible to do the reading so that I could get all of the reading done. I think I was trying to get the full effect of being enrolled in a Spanish Bible class. The professor had us use the honor code to tell him how much we actually read of the assigned reading. Well, me with my honesty earned myself a C. Great job! So I guess I have taken 1 seminary class and I was sub par at it. You are probably wondering why I am writing about seminary. I have realized lately that I don't speak out in boldness more or write more because I am afraid that I will take something out of context or that I don't actually know enough to even write about "spiritual matters." (2 Timothy 4:2) The last thing I would want to do is mislead others or say something that I am not really sure about. However, my neighbor Dan always says that when you are silent it means that you are agreeing. I am not even sure that is biblical at all, but for some reason I always play that phrase in my head every time I hear someone say something I don't really agree with. Lately though I have found myself being quiet more than I would like to. That is of course because you know I haven't been to seminary so I probably don't know what the heck I am talking about. I know the Lord has given me boldness to speak, but I think maybe He has forgotten that I haven't been to seminary. Chalk it up to my Type A personality, but I just have a need to be right and if I am not I hate to go back and humbly correct everyone about my mistake. Is the voice that I hear at times the Holy Spirit telling me to stay quiet because what I am wanting to say is not out of love? Or is it Satan condemning me and filling my head with lies saying that I don't know what the Word of God is really saying because I don't have my masters of divinity? Shouldn't I know the difference in the two voices...?? So I just stay quiet...